MOTHERHOOD

I am back, hope I was missed because it would be really sad if no one noticed I was gone. I took a break from everything including my writing. Just so we are clear, I only took a break because I felt overwhelmed.....like I just had to take a break and do some of my greatest work. I wish I could share it on the blog, this great work, but I am still enjoying it privately.

I used to think that becoming a mother and calling it the greatest thing you've ever done was such a cliche, but I must admit. It's pretty damn awesome. The journey wasn't always easy but your baby's first goofy grin and trusting,unblinking stare is well worth all the drama. I am  now a believer. Motherhood is awesome,and I know those of us who have been doing it for a long time will probably sneer at my meager experience, but, I can't help myself. I love everything,seriously!!!even the drooling ;)

Even as I put pen to paper today, my new demanding master is starting to whimper and I am forced to take a break. I normally don't like to take orders from anyone but as soon as I was handed my 8 pound bundle, all bets were off. I am proud to join the legions of mummies in the world and become the best person I can be.

I may be busier than ever but I am the happiest I have ever been, I will keep writing because I cannot lose my sense of self. So look out world, I am back and wiser than ever.....I think.

A JOYFUL NOISE

It’s been a while since I watched and enjoyed some really sappy/cheesy flick, mmh... I said flick, and yes I know it has not been the 90s for a long time. Anyways, I realize that this does nothing for my image as the strong, intelligent level headed woman I know I am, but, once in a while it is okay to drop the cynicism and just pretend that life is sweet and rosy filled with happy endings. So I caught a damn flick and if you have something to say to me, say it I dare you, and the sweet optimist’s image will drop faster than you can say ‘chick flick’.

So there we have it. I watched a joyful noise mostly because Queen Latifa and Dolly Parton seemed to be such a volatile awkward mix when I caught the sneak peak sometime back. I was thinking that I love these two separately kind of like how I love Fish and Chocolate (in separate plates at different time preferably after I brush my teeth.) You get the idea, these two singers, in my book at least, should never mix. Well that was before, it turned out that my stupid book was wrong, they go really well together, now it looks like I have to rewrite my misguided judgmental book or borrow someone else’s.

Back to a joyful noise, it was surprisingly fun, nothing profound or life altering just simple unthinking fun. Some critics will disagree but if you always want to pay attention to realistic, depressing storylines, don’t go to the movies just look at your life, or your neighbours. That should be pretty realistic and depressing and you can ‘acclaim’ that.  

Maybe the movie is fun because it is awesome to just believe in succeeding against insurmountable odds without calculating the probabilities, it may seem blonde or weak but I loved that movie and all the beautiful music. This one scene with a rendition of’ the man in the mirror’ brought a tear to my eye nothing fell through. Maybe part of why I was making a joyful noise myself was my love of Music and there is some impressive talent here but maybe I just loved losing myself in happy endings and the idea of beating incredible odds. I played pretend for a little while and made a joyful noise. You should try it.

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KARMA…………….OR NOT

I am just guessing, but gun to my head, I would have to say that life happens. It isn’t about what you do, how good you are, the evil things you have done or some other profound stuff like that. It just happens, all totally random, kind of senseless and with seemingly no discernible method to the madness (at least none that I see).

As soon we start looking at life this way; as totally random, you will no longer have to keep asking yourself why stuff happens to you. I am guessing (yes, again) I am guessing that my previous belief in karma was vastly flawed or just wishful thinking. How else can we explain why the good stuff happens to some pretty awful human beings and vice versa?

Some would find this mindset scary but it is actually liberating, exhilarating even; kinda like the way I imagine bungee jumping (a complete show of faith that is deemed as madness by some but gives such a rush). I digress though, the point is it is freeing to stop worrying about all the consequences and what ifs. I am just saying, if we all spent a little less time worrying, planning and speculating and a lot more time living there would be a lot fewer cases of depression going around. Even the most careful people end up dead.

Just in case karma is real and these are the rumblings of my sleep deprived mind, I recommend that we keep the evil doing to a minimum. Live your life without excessive caution, doubts or worry. Just live because life will continue to just happen.

KENYAN WILDLIFE

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